去年的这一周，我非常勤奋的工作。其中一次就从早上六点工作至午夜十二点。很少有这样的“机会”……
过了一年了，虽然时过境迁，但有些回忆始终挥之不去。当时，接到电话时，我除了说一声“ok”，什么也没说。直到放下电话后，才觉得怅惘。那时的感触在我心中留下了深深的烙印。
今天早上听到志勇叙述了以下的访谈，他竟然说不下去，我也差一点听不下去。过后的“不完美”也差点让我的眼泪流了下来。
以下是这位先生这一年来的心情……
女律师孟买恐怖袭击遇害一周年
迈克：我还没有走出来
虽然两个月前就开始约这个访问，不过，当记者前天下午在市区的一家咖啡馆见到迈克时，还是有点不太相信这个穿着条纹衬衫、手拿着手机和名牌钱包、快步从对街银行办公楼走出来的法律主管就是一年前在众人面前崩溃的遇害女律师卢慧燕的丈夫。
是的，时间一转眼过去了，明天就是在孟买酒店遭恐怖分子无情杀害的卢慧燕的一周年忌日。
之前华文媒体把Michael Puhaindran的名字翻译成麦克，这次他才说，原来他的华文名叫“迈克”，他说，“迈”是迈进、进步；“克”是克服。
见面时，他双眼有点微肿，皮肤晒得长雀斑，不过气色还算不错。他语速很快，或许因为是律师，他的修辞功力很高，同一个意思用好几种表达方式，说到伤心处也很有逻辑地加以解释。
理智剖析一年来的生活
跟一年前的当众痛哭不一样，这次迈克不但没有掉泪，甚至适时调侃自己，说完了呵呵笑起来，唯一哽住的时候也只是稍微红了眼眶。
38岁的他很理智地剖析了自己这一年来走过的悲伤、起伏和生活的种种，仿佛在述说别人的故事一样条理分明，仿佛他已经走出伤痛。
但同时，他又感性地给自己的现状定调。他坦承自己并没有走出来，“我不要也不想……要不是朋友和父母，我不想他们承受我所承受的痛，我会跟着慧燕去的，现在还没有找到（活着）的意义和目的。”
去年11月，卢慧燕到孟买出席一个法律座谈会，下榻奥拜罗三叉戟酒店，结果那里被恐怖分子包围，她被掳为人质并遭杀害。
卢慧燕逝世时28岁，成了第一个在国外死于恐怖袭击的国人，她穿着白色婚纱的美丽模样连续好多天出现在报章，她和丈夫的幸福故事也让人无限感伤。
迈克：世界完全变了样
这一年来，大家继续生活，可是迈克的世界却完全变了样，他说，自己愿意接受访问，其中一个主要原因是想感谢大家的帮助。
他透露，刚开始时，周围的将近50个亲友为了不让他胡思乱想，排了班表每天轮流陪他，包括慧燕的朋友，这样一连维持了好几个月。
“周末两个班。午餐一个人，晚餐一个人，有时候是跟三四个人一群，看跟谁出去就做不同的事。起初我并不知道这样的安排，不过很快就意识到了。”
他一直都住在和卢慧燕同筑在东部的爱巢，他说，起初弟弟晚上会去陪他，后来他要求自己睡，他需要那样的独处的空间。“那个时候我才能感受到痛，好像是跟她心灵交会的时候。”
他也记得，起初有很多人写电邮给他，大约有一两千封，结果他的邮箱爆满。Facebook的追思页面上，现在也已有近1万5000个网友。“有些外国人还寄电邮来，他们也说了关于失去（亲人）的经历，现在我还跟其中一些人保持联络，成了网友。”
事发时，他其实已经辞掉之前的工作，在到新的银行工作之前有两个星期休息，事发后，他也只是多休息了两个星期就上班，他知道自己应该走出户外。
大约一两个月后，他开始强迫自己运动，比如星期三打壁球、星期六骑脚踏车、星期天踢足球，甚至重新开始潜水。他也开始让生活恢复节奏，比如星期二跟慧燕家人吃饭、星期四和星期六跟自己的家人。
他还做家务，整理房间，把一些慧燕的衣服和包包送人，但他说，她的衣服还是挂满了衣橱。
整体的状况是，他的情绪从早期的流于表面，到现在比较“内化”，也更深刻。
在访问过程中，迈克唯一停顿的时候是谈到他到土耳其拜访一对年迈夫妇——事发时跟慧燕一起被捉，有幸被释放，他们有个年纪跟慧燕相仿的女儿。“他们没有说太多，老太太一直握住慧燕的手……”
记者问他，哪一段日子是心情最低落的时候，他说，心情时起时落，晚上老是无法安眠。
“我每天每秒都在体会那种痛，所以有时觉得日子过得很慢，但又觉得好像是昨天才发生的。”
明天下午3时，迈克将在慧燕安息的天使之后天主教堂（Church of St Mary of the Angels，位于武吉巴督东2道）举办追思会。迈克说，这是个私人追思会，不希望太多公众前来。
记者与迈克的一些问与答
问：有什么心愿是你想为亡妻完成的？
答：她想要做的是我无法替她完成的，因为我们明年想要个孩子（哈哈），想要买个房子。就是两口子做的事，我自己做就有点难。
问：你走在街上曾被人认出来吗？
答：以前有，不过并没有什么人跟我打招呼。话说回来，我不怎么去那些吵闹的地方比如购物中心（我还没去过Ion Orchard）、夜店和高级餐厅，因为那是以前常跟慧燕做的事。我一直住在东部，刚开始时，我甚至连吃饭都坚持只在东部，那里是我的安全地带。
问：每逢一些特别的日子，如她的生日或结婚纪念日，你都会在Facebook留言，比如F1的时候，你说去年跟她看的，今年的F1你去看了吗？
答：今年我故意没去看F1，只是看了电视转播的最后半小时。我现在也不怎么喝红酒和香槟，而是改喝威士忌，因为这是以前她不太喝的。
问：没去购物，没怎么打扮自己，你看起来还不错。
答：我没有特地去打扮，只是尽量不要让自己太邋遢，慧燕如果知道你称赞我，她会很高兴的，因为她总是比较在乎这方面。如果可以的话，我也只想穿汗衫百慕达裤。除了年初去美国探望弟弟时到工厂直销买了些衣服，今年还真的没买过衣服。
(以上取之11月26日联合早报）
Friday, November 27, 2009
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Justus' wedding
Absolutely enjoyed Justus' wedding today!
It was a great time of catching up with people all the way since secondary school! And come to think of it, all of us have known each other for 13 years! Woo hoo! So happy and high today! For all of us, it's the first time that we drank so much for a lunch banquet. There were three bottoms up with just too much alcohol in each glass. At the end of it, we were just too high that we asked for two rounds of Chinese tea. Really funny. A lot of laughter and joy. Happy for Justus and glad to see everyone.
It was a great time of catching up with people all the way since secondary school! And come to think of it, all of us have known each other for 13 years! Woo hoo! So happy and high today! For all of us, it's the first time that we drank so much for a lunch banquet. There were three bottoms up with just too much alcohol in each glass. At the end of it, we were just too high that we asked for two rounds of Chinese tea. Really funny. A lot of laughter and joy. Happy for Justus and glad to see everyone.
Yong Kwang with his prawn in a rose. All of us were too high by then. I couldn't even focus.
A table photo but without the groom! Sigh...
Monday, November 09, 2009
Renovation works
Weet!
Really happy to be home on a Monday night. Had planned to go to the gym tonight since Joshua is having his off day on Wednesday (Wednesday is my usual gym day) but decided to call it off. I was just too tired. I slept at 4am on Friday and Saturday and woke up five hours later and I slept at 1am on Sunday. I was really tired. In fact, I was waiting for time to pass so that I could knock off since I finished my stuff in the morning and my meeting in the afternoon was called off.
Anyway, some updates about my house. Renovation works started last week!
Here's a look at the before and after.
Really happy to be home on a Monday night. Had planned to go to the gym tonight since Joshua is having his off day on Wednesday (Wednesday is my usual gym day) but decided to call it off. I was just too tired. I slept at 4am on Friday and Saturday and woke up five hours later and I slept at 1am on Sunday. I was really tired. In fact, I was waiting for time to pass so that I could knock off since I finished my stuff in the morning and my meeting in the afternoon was called off.
Anyway, some updates about my house. Renovation works started last week!
Here's a look at the before and after.
Living Room
Master Bedroom
Dining Room
Basically, there was a lot of hacking. The false ceilings were all removed, including the timber skirting. All that is left is what you see. So, there will be a lot of plastering work to be done. The air conditioner will be installed tomorrow and painting works will begin soon!
Can't wait for the house to be done!
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Scholars
A recent family event left me reeling with the scholars from my extended family. The rest of the cousins, like me, who were non-scholars were disgusted with those "elites". But then again, we are thankful that although we may not have the IQ, we have the EQ which is far more important. Now, Eddie Teo (Chairman, Public Service Commission) came up with this speech on scholars. Agree with him in some points. The speech is ten pages long, read it if you have the time. Below is the report from The Straits Times:
MOST of the current generation of young scholars are responsible and dedicated, but a few have a poor attitude and misplaced expectations. Some are very choosy about their postings and tend to place their personal interest above organisational interest, said chairman of the Public Service Commission Eddie Teo.
'Many Management Associates or MAs want to go to Ministry of Trade and Industry or Ministry of Finance for their first postings and get upset if they are posted elsewhere. One was so upset that he resigned, breaking his bond,' said Mr Teo, in an address to some 350 scholarship holders from 27 public agencies at the annual Singapore Seminar in London on Oct 31.
'When some young MAs were asked to go to NTUC to observe retrenchment exercises and learn about what impact the current economic recession is having on ordinary Singaporeans, one MA asked 'What is a retrenchment exercise?''
Mr Teo raised this to highlight why the Public Service is concerned about this group of young scholars who are seeking to advance only their self-interest, as 'it indicates that they may be unable to work in a team.' He is also worried that if fewer and fewer young scholars desire ground postings, more of them may become divorced from ground issues and will start to lose their empathy for ordinary Singaporeans.
But Mr Teo hastened to add: 'The problem is not yet so widespread that it cannot be rolled back. There is still time for the Public Service to correct the trend.'
In his speech, titled 'Defending Scholarships but not all Scholars', Mr Teo dwelt on bond breaking and attrition of scholars, two emerging trends in Singapore's scholarship system, as well as addressed the question on whether the Government is giving out too many scholarships and not enough bursaries for students from poorer backgrounds.
http://www.straitstimes.com/STI/STIMEDIA/pdf/20091104/speecheddieteo.pdf
MOST of the current generation of young scholars are responsible and dedicated, but a few have a poor attitude and misplaced expectations. Some are very choosy about their postings and tend to place their personal interest above organisational interest, said chairman of the Public Service Commission Eddie Teo.
'Many Management Associates or MAs want to go to Ministry of Trade and Industry or Ministry of Finance for their first postings and get upset if they are posted elsewhere. One was so upset that he resigned, breaking his bond,' said Mr Teo, in an address to some 350 scholarship holders from 27 public agencies at the annual Singapore Seminar in London on Oct 31.
'When some young MAs were asked to go to NTUC to observe retrenchment exercises and learn about what impact the current economic recession is having on ordinary Singaporeans, one MA asked 'What is a retrenchment exercise?''
Mr Teo raised this to highlight why the Public Service is concerned about this group of young scholars who are seeking to advance only their self-interest, as 'it indicates that they may be unable to work in a team.' He is also worried that if fewer and fewer young scholars desire ground postings, more of them may become divorced from ground issues and will start to lose their empathy for ordinary Singaporeans.
But Mr Teo hastened to add: 'The problem is not yet so widespread that it cannot be rolled back. There is still time for the Public Service to correct the trend.'
In his speech, titled 'Defending Scholarships but not all Scholars', Mr Teo dwelt on bond breaking and attrition of scholars, two emerging trends in Singapore's scholarship system, as well as addressed the question on whether the Government is giving out too many scholarships and not enough bursaries for students from poorer backgrounds.
http://www.straitstimes.com/STI/STIMEDIA/pdf/20091104/speecheddieteo.pdf
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
Bad customer service
Joshua and I went to a foreign bank last week to apply for a renovation loan. We chose the bank simply because it offered the lowest interest rates. Other than that, there would be no other reason for me to step into the bank at all.
Anyway, my first impression of the Relationship Manager I met was not good. Well, he was a tall lanky guy, well dressed but not sharp at all. Halfway into our session with him, I seriously started to think if I should get someone else. For every question I asked, he had to go out to ask his colleague. What about knowing your work?! Even if you are a rookie, at least will know something right?! Anyway, the last straw came when he said we couldn't apply as joint applicants as we are not married! Hello?!?!? I brought along our ROM registration form to certify that we are getting married on 5 Dec! I turned towards Joshua and told him to call a friend of ours who I was very sure was not married when he and his then fiancee applied for the renovation loan. I was right! The RM then called his colleagues upstairs and confirmed that we could apply for the loan.
Fast forward to Monday, our loan was approved and Joshua and I was there to sign the letter of offer. I was early and Joshua was still on his way. I went into the bank and looked for the RM. He said I looked different because I was standing up and because the last time he saw me I was sitting down. *Roll eyes*
If you have nothing better to say, do not say anything. I'll be fine even if you talk to me about the weather.
I started reading the letter of offer and I was barely into the first paragraph when I realised that something was wrong. We applied for a fixed interest rate loan, not a floating one! The RM went into the "Oh no, this has never happened before, how did this happen"? As if I could answer his question. Duh.
I asked the RM what could be done. He had to check with his colleague. Nothing new about that. He came back and told me that I would have to come back on Tuesday as the bank needed one day to make the amendments! So... I raised my voice. It was totally unacceptable. How could they waste my time like this?! I made my way to the bank because they said the documents were ready and for goodness sake, the letter of offer has a standard template. Why would they need one day to recalculate, or change whatsoever?! I told the RM that I wanted the changes made within the next hour and that I was not going to waste my time and effort to come back another day. Shouldn't he check the document before I come?! So, he told me to have lunch first since I am hungry and he was hungry too! Who cares about him being hungry?! My goodness. Mind you, there was NO apology from him.
Sigh... There is still a part 2 to this but I have no energy to write a long long essay. The good thing? The loan is approved, I collected the cheques and I do not need to go back to the bank for the longest of times.
Anyway, my first impression of the Relationship Manager I met was not good. Well, he was a tall lanky guy, well dressed but not sharp at all. Halfway into our session with him, I seriously started to think if I should get someone else. For every question I asked, he had to go out to ask his colleague. What about knowing your work?! Even if you are a rookie, at least will know something right?! Anyway, the last straw came when he said we couldn't apply as joint applicants as we are not married! Hello?!?!? I brought along our ROM registration form to certify that we are getting married on 5 Dec! I turned towards Joshua and told him to call a friend of ours who I was very sure was not married when he and his then fiancee applied for the renovation loan. I was right! The RM then called his colleagues upstairs and confirmed that we could apply for the loan.
Fast forward to Monday, our loan was approved and Joshua and I was there to sign the letter of offer. I was early and Joshua was still on his way. I went into the bank and looked for the RM. He said I looked different because I was standing up and because the last time he saw me I was sitting down. *Roll eyes*
If you have nothing better to say, do not say anything. I'll be fine even if you talk to me about the weather.
I started reading the letter of offer and I was barely into the first paragraph when I realised that something was wrong. We applied for a fixed interest rate loan, not a floating one! The RM went into the "Oh no, this has never happened before, how did this happen"? As if I could answer his question. Duh.
I asked the RM what could be done. He had to check with his colleague. Nothing new about that. He came back and told me that I would have to come back on Tuesday as the bank needed one day to make the amendments! So... I raised my voice. It was totally unacceptable. How could they waste my time like this?! I made my way to the bank because they said the documents were ready and for goodness sake, the letter of offer has a standard template. Why would they need one day to recalculate, or change whatsoever?! I told the RM that I wanted the changes made within the next hour and that I was not going to waste my time and effort to come back another day. Shouldn't he check the document before I come?! So, he told me to have lunch first since I am hungry and he was hungry too! Who cares about him being hungry?! My goodness. Mind you, there was NO apology from him.
Sigh... There is still a part 2 to this but I have no energy to write a long long essay. The good thing? The loan is approved, I collected the cheques and I do not need to go back to the bank for the longest of times.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Xinwei & Jenna's wedding
"This day I will marry my friend,
the one I laugh with, live for, and dream with..."
This was the tagline for Xinwei and Jenna's wedding invitation card.
And, this was one of the most touching wedding I ever attended this year.
Well, it's probably it's because I've known Jenna for seven years. We went through university together, took the same modules, went to church together after exams and lectures, knew of how Xinwei pursued her and knew of how Xinwei proposed. It might be all these or it might be not. But, I was certainly very happy for my friend getting married. The whole wedding was full of anticipation, beautiful pictures, and many well wishes. The atmosphere was just wonderful, their thank you speech was heartfelt and you could see the love, happiness and joy from their eyes.
All I can say is: I am very touched.
the one I laugh with, live for, and dream with..."
This was the tagline for Xinwei and Jenna's wedding invitation card.
And, this was one of the most touching wedding I ever attended this year.
Well, it's probably it's because I've known Jenna for seven years. We went through university together, took the same modules, went to church together after exams and lectures, knew of how Xinwei pursued her and knew of how Xinwei proposed. It might be all these or it might be not. But, I was certainly very happy for my friend getting married. The whole wedding was full of anticipation, beautiful pictures, and many well wishes. The atmosphere was just wonderful, their thank you speech was heartfelt and you could see the love, happiness and joy from their eyes.
All I can say is: I am very touched.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
对的人
Went into this old song phase recently and was listening to a lot of Chinese songs in the late 90s and early 2000. Then I stumbled upon this song again. Like singing it in the KTV but it's a hard song to sing. By the time you finish singing this song, it's like you have no more breath in you. But still, I challenge myself with this song every time. Hopefully, it doesn't hurt my vocal cords.
你问在我心中是否还苦恼
那次受伤否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照我一切都好
一个人不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上一定会遇到
对的人出现在眼角
那次流过的泪让我学习到
如何祝福如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要是一种对照
爱虽然很美妙却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上一定会遇到
对的人出现
能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱海阔天高
喔---耶----
爱要耐心等待仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在世界上一定会遇到
对的人出现
你问在我心中是否还苦恼
那次受伤否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照我一切都好
一个人不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上一定会遇到
对的人出现在眼角
那次流过的泪让我学习到
如何祝福如何转身不要
在眼泪体会到与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要是一种对照
爱虽然很美妙却不能为了寂寞
又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在这个世界上一定会遇到
对的人出现
能愿意为了一份爱付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候
我就算已经准备好
放手去爱海阔天高
喔---耶----
爱要耐心等待仔细寻找
感觉很重要
宁可空白了手等候一次
真心的拥抱
我相信在世界上一定会遇到
对的人出现
Wedding band...
A sneak preview of our wedding band from Love & Co but I forgot to snap pictures of my 'si dian jin' which is with Joshua now...
Random thoughts
Realise that I am not blogging as frequently as I want to. Hmm.. I posted 53 posts in 2008, so this year I should beat last year's postings! Hahaha... A mad competition within myself. Heh... Anyway, September and this early October is a wedding month! For the past one month, I've attended three weddings with one more to come tomorrow. Happy for all the couples but it has also burnt a hole in my pocket. Haha. Nah, I shouldn't be so pessimistic, mine is coming up anyway!
At the same time, I am trying to do so many things! We've sent the invitations for printing, we've selected the gown, we've selected the bridal car, blah blah blah. A little bit stressed at times but also quite fun!
At the same time, I am trying to do so many things! We've sent the invitations for printing, we've selected the gown, we've selected the bridal car, blah blah blah. A little bit stressed at times but also quite fun!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
So much things to do!
The wedding is in 10 weeks time!
It seems awfully near and there are so many things to do!
Still sorting out the guest list!
Can only start reno works in end-Oct.
Choose actual day gowns at the end of this month.
And... I need a lot of money!!!
Screams!!!!!!!!
It seems awfully near and there are so many things to do!
Still sorting out the guest list!
Can only start reno works in end-Oct.
Choose actual day gowns at the end of this month.
And... I need a lot of money!!!
Screams!!!!!!!!
Sunday, August 30, 2009
我的依赖
I like the MV but I love the lyrics...
地震的夜晚赶来作伴
重感冒的凌晨煮着稀饭
这个让我哭过的人多么温暖
我感谢我们不完美却坦白自然
我们从牵手放手又牵手走过来
愿意为更懂你的心 spending all my life
每当情绪像海
你只抱我从不催我讲出来
我就明白你是我的依赖
我们从期待失落又期待走过来
愿意为一起看未来 spending all my life
每当变成习惯生活太淡总有感动的意外
我就明白你是我的依赖
就算是幸福都由老天在管
只借不送我还是不肯还用真爱耍赖
我们从日出日落又日出走过来
愿意为爱你去忙碌 spending all my life
每当命运变幻需要狂欢需要流泪你都在
我就明白你是我的依赖
我们明白爱是互相依赖
地震的夜晚赶来作伴
重感冒的凌晨煮着稀饭
这个让我哭过的人多么温暖
我感谢我们不完美却坦白自然
我们从牵手放手又牵手走过来
愿意为更懂你的心 spending all my life
每当情绪像海
你只抱我从不催我讲出来
我就明白你是我的依赖
我们从期待失落又期待走过来
愿意为一起看未来 spending all my life
每当变成习惯生活太淡总有感动的意外
我就明白你是我的依赖
就算是幸福都由老天在管
只借不送我还是不肯还用真爱耍赖
我们从日出日落又日出走过来
愿意为爱你去忙碌 spending all my life
每当命运变幻需要狂欢需要流泪你都在
我就明白你是我的依赖
我们明白爱是互相依赖
Saturday, August 29, 2009
singalongsong
Am liking this singalongsong by Khalil Fong...
I wrote this song it’s not too long
Cos’ I’ve been thinking ‘about you
I wrote this song maybe I’m wrong
To be caught up about you
Well I don’t know what you think ’bout me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see
Oh it’s a singalong song that’s not too long
It’s when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos’ baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
I wrote this song it’s not too long
Cos’ I’m the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can’t be wrong
I don’t wanna smile without you
Well I just want to make you happy
But maybe you want nothing at all
And how I wish that you’re meant to be
Forever and a day with me
In everyway you mean more to me than you’ll ever know
Girl I’ll do my best to show these words are true
And if you’d like to make a song
And be a perfect harmony with me
I’d find the greatest words to sing
So we could write our own romance
I wrote this song it’s not too long
Cos’ I’ve been thinking ‘about you
I wrote this song maybe I’m wrong
To be caught up about you
Well I don’t know what you think ’bout me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see
Oh it’s a singalong song that’s not too long
It’s when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos’ baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
I wrote this song it’s not too long
Cos’ I’m the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can’t be wrong
I don’t wanna smile without you
Well I just want to make you happy
But maybe you want nothing at all
And how I wish that you’re meant to be
Forever and a day with me
In everyway you mean more to me than you’ll ever know
Girl I’ll do my best to show these words are true
And if you’d like to make a song
And be a perfect harmony with me
I’d find the greatest words to sing
So we could write our own romance
Monday, August 10, 2009
For the past ten days...
The past ten days has been fun and happening although I was down with flu for the past few days. However, the month started well. I started working under a new boss, celebrated my birthday and CHC's 20th anniversary...
To all my dear friends who celebrated my birthday: I love you all to bits! Thanks for making my birthday a special one!
Me and my birthday brownie.
James, Wenkai, David, Alvin (who looks like he's shooting a watch ad), myself and Claudia.
With Sally.
With Joshua, of course.
And we had CHC's 20th anniversary! Sat through a six hour service that day, got the crystal block, shed buckets of tears and most importantly, thankful to God for all that He has given me, for all that He has given to this church and putting me in CHC. Absolutely loved the anniversary celebration and I am looking forward to another 20 years!
Richard, myself, Joshua, Steven, Cherie, Liyi, Jessica, Ivory and Wenkai - all of us in high spirits at the end of the service!
And yesterday... My dear aunt gave me a rock solid yellow gold bangle for my upcoming wedding! Hee... Uber cool!
To all my dear friends who celebrated my birthday: I love you all to bits! Thanks for making my birthday a special one!
Me and my birthday brownie.
James, Wenkai, David, Alvin (who looks like he's shooting a watch ad), myself and Claudia.
With Sally.
With Joshua, of course.
And we had CHC's 20th anniversary! Sat through a six hour service that day, got the crystal block, shed buckets of tears and most importantly, thankful to God for all that He has given me, for all that He has given to this church and putting me in CHC. Absolutely loved the anniversary celebration and I am looking forward to another 20 years!
Richard, myself, Joshua, Steven, Cherie, Liyi, Jessica, Ivory and Wenkai - all of us in high spirits at the end of the service!
And yesterday... My dear aunt gave me a rock solid yellow gold bangle for my upcoming wedding! Hee... Uber cool!
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Back to civilisation
The laptop is back finally.
If the repair is not done properly this time, I am so going to scold the service personnel.
I do not want to go through this hassle again.
If the repair is not done properly this time, I am so going to scold the service personnel.
I do not want to go through this hassle again.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Nail woes
I really love the nail extensions that I did for my wedding photoshoot. Personally, I really think that they look fantastic. But... Nice being nice and when it becomes a hassle, it has to go. I had to file them off because it was just getting in the way of everything I was trying to do. I couldn't type properly. I couldn't pull up my zip properly. I couldn't write properly. Basically, I couldn't do a lot of things properly. The nails were just way too long and it affected my daily life!
So, bye bye lovely nails.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Wishlist 101
To all my dear friends who read my blog and got worried, thanks so much for your concern. Really appreciate it.
No worries ok? I just had to rant and get the frustration out of my system. I am fine now.
Anyway, set my sight on a few things recently and I am so going to save money for all of it. Yah, they are "wants" not "needs". At least these are things that I look forward to. Hehehe.
iPod touch since my iPod nano is going haywire.
Harry Potter box set!
I must be getting mad to look forward to a non-camera phone. Hahaha.
No worries ok? I just had to rant and get the frustration out of my system. I am fine now.
Anyway, set my sight on a few things recently and I am so going to save money for all of it. Yah, they are "wants" not "needs". At least these are things that I look forward to. Hehehe.
iPod touch since my iPod nano is going haywire.
Harry Potter box set!
I must be getting mad to look forward to a non-camera phone. Hahaha.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
"Sian" to the max
I seriously do not know how to start writing this entry.
Is it a bad day or a bad week? I seriously do not know. But... I am just so down this week. So tired. So sick of what is going on. Sigh...
It all began on Monday. I woke up at 8am. Mind you, I start work at 8.30am. I jumped up of bed and then spent five minutes contemplating if I should go to work or maybe, I should just get an MC which by the way, would cost me less than taking a cab. Well, work prevailed. I had to hand in something on Thursday and since my Tuesday and Wednesday afternoons would be spent on meetings, I needed to do as much as possible on Monday. So, I took a cab and well, it was about 30 bucks.
On Wednesday, I was feeling down down down. My colleague got transferred out and I was there wondering, "why can't it be me"? All of a sudden, I felt so sick of what I was doing. I couldn't take it. I went to the toilet, sat down, and cry.
I don't like to pretend and I am not good at pretenses.
Go on and continue your pretense. Go on and continue to sideline me. Go on and continue to play your political games.
I don't want to be affected by you anymore.
It sounds cliche, but I will survive.
Is it a bad day or a bad week? I seriously do not know. But... I am just so down this week. So tired. So sick of what is going on. Sigh...
It all began on Monday. I woke up at 8am. Mind you, I start work at 8.30am. I jumped up of bed and then spent five minutes contemplating if I should go to work or maybe, I should just get an MC which by the way, would cost me less than taking a cab. Well, work prevailed. I had to hand in something on Thursday and since my Tuesday and Wednesday afternoons would be spent on meetings, I needed to do as much as possible on Monday. So, I took a cab and well, it was about 30 bucks.
On Wednesday, I was feeling down down down. My colleague got transferred out and I was there wondering, "why can't it be me"? All of a sudden, I felt so sick of what I was doing. I couldn't take it. I went to the toilet, sat down, and cry.
I don't like to pretend and I am not good at pretenses.
Go on and continue your pretense. Go on and continue to sideline me. Go on and continue to play your political games.
I don't want to be affected by you anymore.
It sounds cliche, but I will survive.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Updates...
Bam! Haven't blogged for almost a month.
Oh well, the Aaron Kwok concert is still very much alive in my mind. Haha.
Anyway, some new things are coming up.
Met up with a dear friend recently and I'll be very involved in her wedding, so much so, that she has entrusted me with the position of a coordinator. First time I am doing it. Well, am going to try my best and make sure that everything goes well.
Then, there are some new challenges at work. But... There seems to be some underlying tension. Anyway, I'll just do a good job.
So, that's it. I wish I could write more but the brain is not working. I need a lot of sleep. Yawns.
Oh well, the Aaron Kwok concert is still very much alive in my mind. Haha.
Anyway, some new things are coming up.
Met up with a dear friend recently and I'll be very involved in her wedding, so much so, that she has entrusted me with the position of a coordinator. First time I am doing it. Well, am going to try my best and make sure that everything goes well.
Then, there are some new challenges at work. But... There seems to be some underlying tension. Anyway, I'll just do a good job.
So, that's it. I wish I could write more but the brain is not working. I need a lot of sleep. Yawns.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Aaron Kwok De Show Reel Live in Concert Singapore
All I can say is: SPECTACULAR.
The 450 degree rotating stage just blew me away.
Never mind the still not perfect Mandarin.
It was the visuals, showmanship, stage, lighting that blew me away.
The 450 degree rotating stage just blew me away.
Never mind the still not perfect Mandarin.
It was the visuals, showmanship, stage, lighting that blew me away.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
De Show Reel Concert
Feeling very very excited for tonight's concert!
Finally, I can catch Aaron Kwok in action!
Monday, May 25, 2009
We got it!
We sealed the deal!
We didn't have to pay cash.
We are going to buy it 15K below valuation.
We got the house!
Woohoo!
We didn't have to pay cash.
We are going to buy it 15K below valuation.
We got the house!
Woohoo!
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
能力
回到公司的第一天就被她气。
简直是莫名其妙。
你可以无视我的存在但请不要对我找事。
对我而言， 这只衬托了你的无能。
我的薪水低，但至少我知道我自己在做什么。
就算你憋开我也没问题，至少我的能力是被其它人认同的。
简直是莫名其妙。
你可以无视我的存在但请不要对我找事。
对我而言， 这只衬托了你的无能。
我的薪水低，但至少我知道我自己在做什么。
就算你憋开我也没问题，至少我的能力是被其它人认同的。
T-shirts galore!
I so feel like buying these T-shirts!
Check it out on http://www.printeet.com/shop/index.php
Check it out on http://www.printeet.com/shop/index.php
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Monday, April 13, 2009
New!
I am loving my new blog template and wallpaper.
Check out http://www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/ for their wallpapers.
A lot to choose from and absolutely nice!
Check out http://www.thecutestblogontheblock.com/ for their wallpapers.
A lot to choose from and absolutely nice!
It's a deal!
After much procrastination, much research (Yes! Research is needed!), much scouting around and much advice from my friends, I've finally signed up for my bridal package.
Went to Suntec after all the Easter services were over and went to the "much talkabout" wedding fair. Well, it was a small scale one and I ended up doing surveys, getting free gifts, filling up more than 10 copies of lucky draw entries (because we spent a whopping four-figure amount!) and yes, being pestered or should I say harassed by the sales personnel of the bridal boutiques in the exhibition. Joshua absolutely abhorred this kind of pushy sales tactics and he almost flared up before we even started looking at anything seriously. For me, I do not like pushy stuff either but we had to sit down somewhere. The bridal boutique that I was eyeing was involved in the exhibition so I had to take a look at it. Thank God, the sales personnel was not pushy at all (unlike the previous one I went to). We negotiated (absolutely necessary), saw the albums (we were sold when we saw the pictures) and signed up for it. The staff said that we would have to take our photos in June if our wedding is in December and that means, I have to choose my gowns this month! Screams! No time!.
Anyway, the bridal company gave us an interesting gift when we signed up for the package. It ain't cute, it is interesting.
What does this look like? Cosmetic box? Although I can't imagine any sane person would carry this around. Too red and bit of tai tai-ish.
Tada! It is full of biscuits and pastries! Apparently, the Taiwanese gives this away as their wedding gifts to relatives!
Two layers of 19 different types of biscuits and pastries.
Went to Suntec after all the Easter services were over and went to the "much talkabout" wedding fair. Well, it was a small scale one and I ended up doing surveys, getting free gifts, filling up more than 10 copies of lucky draw entries (because we spent a whopping four-figure amount!) and yes, being pestered or should I say harassed by the sales personnel of the bridal boutiques in the exhibition. Joshua absolutely abhorred this kind of pushy sales tactics and he almost flared up before we even started looking at anything seriously. For me, I do not like pushy stuff either but we had to sit down somewhere. The bridal boutique that I was eyeing was involved in the exhibition so I had to take a look at it. Thank God, the sales personnel was not pushy at all (unlike the previous one I went to). We negotiated (absolutely necessary), saw the albums (we were sold when we saw the pictures) and signed up for it. The staff said that we would have to take our photos in June if our wedding is in December and that means, I have to choose my gowns this month! Screams! No time!.
Anyway, the bridal company gave us an interesting gift when we signed up for the package. It ain't cute, it is interesting.
What does this look like? Cosmetic box? Although I can't imagine any sane person would carry this around. Too red and bit of tai tai-ish.
Tada! It is full of biscuits and pastries! Apparently, the Taiwanese gives this away as their wedding gifts to relatives!
Two layers of 19 different types of biscuits and pastries.
Saturday, April 04, 2009
God of My Forever
From the first time I sang this song, I fell in love with it.
It reminded me of the days when I first came to church as a youth. I was only secondary two then. Suddenly, I realised that I've been in this church for more than a decade!
Anyway, sang this song for worship today and once again, I was reminded of how God had bless me for the past ten years. Finishing my 'O' levels, then 'A' levels, university education, and then as a working adult. Different stages of my life with God in it. I was overwhelmed. Touched. Blessed. Reminded of how God has been there for me. Reminded of His Love. Reminded of His blessings.
Truly, He is God of My Forever.
It reminded me of the days when I first came to church as a youth. I was only secondary two then. Suddenly, I realised that I've been in this church for more than a decade!
Anyway, sang this song for worship today and once again, I was reminded of how God had bless me for the past ten years. Finishing my 'O' levels, then 'A' levels, university education, and then as a working adult. Different stages of my life with God in it. I was overwhelmed. Touched. Blessed. Reminded of how God has been there for me. Reminded of His Love. Reminded of His blessings.
Truly, He is God of My Forever.
Loan suspension?
Did my calculations.
It was ironic. The loan suspension would last from April 2009 to March 2010, about the exact same time that I would clear my loan repayment if I continue paying.
Well, after much thought and asking around for advice, I've decided to continue my loan repayment. Was quite reluctant initially, I mean, I thought the bank really gave me a good deal. Haha. But then again, why be bogged down by the loan when I still have the means to pay it?
Yes, I need the extra money.
But, I BELIEVE in BLESSINGS.
It was ironic. The loan suspension would last from April 2009 to March 2010, about the exact same time that I would clear my loan repayment if I continue paying.
Well, after much thought and asking around for advice, I've decided to continue my loan repayment. Was quite reluctant initially, I mean, I thought the bank really gave me a good deal. Haha. But then again, why be bogged down by the loan when I still have the means to pay it?
Yes, I need the extra money.
But, I BELIEVE in BLESSINGS.
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Daydreaming
Daydreams can come true...
Because of my debts and my upcoming wedding, I've been trying to save as much money as I can but it came to naught because of various reasons. So, I had a wish. I wished that the bank that I was in debt to would lose their banking records or whatsoever, so that my loan records would "vanish". Yah, I really thought of that. Mad, I know. Then... I thought if the universities are going to freeze their school fees, maybe the bank can suspend my loan repayment.
That wish came true.
Received a letter from the bank today. Apparently, they were commissioned by MOE to provide a suspension of loan repayment from 1 April 2009 to 31 March 2010. I was jumping for joy because my daydream came true!
But now, I am thinking if I should continue paying. If I continue my payment, I would finish repaying my loan exactly in Mar 2010. This is so ironic.
I need to think, think, think.
Because of my debts and my upcoming wedding, I've been trying to save as much money as I can but it came to naught because of various reasons. So, I had a wish. I wished that the bank that I was in debt to would lose their banking records or whatsoever, so that my loan records would "vanish". Yah, I really thought of that. Mad, I know. Then... I thought if the universities are going to freeze their school fees, maybe the bank can suspend my loan repayment.
That wish came true.
Received a letter from the bank today. Apparently, they were commissioned by MOE to provide a suspension of loan repayment from 1 April 2009 to 31 March 2010. I was jumping for joy because my daydream came true!
But now, I am thinking if I should continue paying. If I continue my payment, I would finish repaying my loan exactly in Mar 2010. This is so ironic.
I need to think, think, think.
Choir and weddings
I love attending church weddings of choir members. It will always be loud, boisterous, cat calls all over and a great time for me catch up with all my choir pals. Although some of us are no longer in choir, but it will always be a great time of gathering.
Attended Mario and Jolene's wedding today. It was so touching that even Pastor Ming shed tears, a first for him. I liked what he said at the end of the wedding:
"True love does not have a happy ending, it has no ending".
Attended Mario and Jolene's wedding today. It was so touching that even Pastor Ming shed tears, a first for him. I liked what he said at the end of the wedding:
"True love does not have a happy ending, it has no ending".
Friday, March 20, 2009
胡言乱语
工作时每次都会碰到怪怪的人。
有时候，我想可能也是怪怪的。
不然，它们为什么会雇用我？！
满脑子都是想一些怪怪的东西，不是我变笨，要不然就是我在那怪环境中越变越怪。
哈哈。我在胡说八道。
疯了。
资政说新家坡每年需要300位主修汉语/汉学的大学毕业生。
我想，我在这里干嘛？！
有时候，我想可能也是怪怪的。
不然，它们为什么会雇用我？！
满脑子都是想一些怪怪的东西，不是我变笨，要不然就是我在那怪环境中越变越怪。
哈哈。我在胡说八道。
疯了。
资政说新家坡每年需要300位主修汉语/汉学的大学毕业生。
我想，我在这里干嘛？！
Monday, March 09, 2009
明天以后
在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了天晴朗了我就走
你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
还来不及对你说迟到的我的心动
你的好你的坏
我的脾气你最懂
我不要你心疼我(我不要你离开我)
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(我不怕会伤心)
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你
你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
我从来没对你说压抑的我的心动
我的好我的坏我的脾气你最懂
我不要你来心疼我
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(我不怕会伤心)
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你
爱情总让人折磨
所以我们才选择做比情人更好的朋友
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心(我不怕会伤心)
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一(我并不是你的唯一)
还微笑祝福你
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Looking around
Sat through a gruelling one hour session with a certain bridal boutique yesterday night. Was almost tempted to sign or rather the sales personnel wanted me to sign on immediately. But, I held my ground. It was the first boutique that I saw and I need to look at others too!
Did my research, asked my friends and hmm... this boutique doesn't sound so good after all. My eyes are open big big now. More research, reviews and looking around.
Did my research, asked my friends and hmm... this boutique doesn't sound so good after all. My eyes are open big big now. More research, reviews and looking around.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Random thoughts
Had very spicy curry today and now, my stomach is still feeling the after effects of it...
I am tired but happy...
I want to sleep but I want to rest and relax first by watching videos. This is madness. Haha.
I am tired but happy...
I want to sleep but I want to rest and relax first by watching videos. This is madness. Haha.
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Flu woes...
Took MC today...
I felt the first signs of the flu creeping up on me on Tuesday. On Wednesday, it was full blown but I was at work, trying to complete my filenote. By the end of it, I was literally stuffing tissue up my nose. My nose was hurting from all the blowing and the tissue "creating" friction with my nose.
So... I slept my day away today. Saw the doctor, took the usual medication. I came to realise that I always have the same sickness when I visit my GP. I could predict the medicine he gave me, predict the cost and even how long the consultation would take. Weird. Trust me to predict such things.
Anyway, I didn't know that I sound bad until I spoke to Hui Juan just now. She was alarmed at how I sound and I was alarmed that I sound so bad. Haha... I'm getting drowsy from the medication.
Good night...
I felt the first signs of the flu creeping up on me on Tuesday. On Wednesday, it was full blown but I was at work, trying to complete my filenote. By the end of it, I was literally stuffing tissue up my nose. My nose was hurting from all the blowing and the tissue "creating" friction with my nose.
So... I slept my day away today. Saw the doctor, took the usual medication. I came to realise that I always have the same sickness when I visit my GP. I could predict the medicine he gave me, predict the cost and even how long the consultation would take. Weird. Trust me to predict such things.
Anyway, I didn't know that I sound bad until I spoke to Hui Juan just now. She was alarmed at how I sound and I was alarmed that I sound so bad. Haha... I'm getting drowsy from the medication.
Good night...
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Design for Living
舞台剧《华丽上班族之生活与生存》---详细介绍：
张艾嘉+郑元畅+王耀庆
王牌联手探索城市风尚
一出城市蓝图式新戏剧
金马影后张艾嘉+非常导演林奕华
《蔷薇之恋》《恶作剧之吻》超人气偶像郑元畅
《水浒传》《西游记》爆笑千面型男王耀庆
《包法利夫人们》原班人马
转战职场 ，演尽上班族的想象与未来
事业的台风
爱情的地震
财富的海啸
在生存的边缘优雅地讨论生活，到底谁是最后的赢家？
“华丽上班族的生存法则”（人物简介）：
八面玲珑 快活族 张艾嘉
理直气壮 乐活族 郑元畅
胜者为王 BoBo族 王耀庆
朝气蓬勃 NONO族 杨淇
光鲜亮丽 候鸟族 谢盈宣
坐而论道 丁克族 朱宏章
笑里藏刀 跳蚤族 庄凯勋
卧薪尝胆 本本族 黄建伟
手到拿来 99族 林钰玲
活色生香 辣奢族 吴天葳
悲天悯人 号哭族 陈恭铭
来去无定 穷忙族 彭浩秦
无限美白 月光族 林英杰
“华丽上班族的生活必须品”（剧情简介）：
一宗发生在500米摩天大楼空中花园的性骚扰事件
一杯隐藏著连串阴谋的拿铁
一辑春光明媚的勒索照片
一篇拒绝说出心底话的博客
一个误会自己是MSN的QQ
一份使人堕入陷阱的礼物
一个不可取替的掌门车位
一次为了换取友谊的买卖朋友
一个名叫办公室政治的网上游戏
一名传闻将被篡位的女老板，与12个穿著华丽的上班族
争夺一个可以鸟瞰整个城市的位置
林奕华：“生存需要聪明，生活需要智慧。”
Design for Living is the 重头剧 for this year's Huayi Festival. It's been really a while since I saw a Chinese play, really hope that this will be good. Moreover, there's Sylvia Chang and the talented director Lin Yihua. Solid cast. Really looking forward to it.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
History made
Missed the live telecast of the inauguration last night. But... Thank God for technology! Now, I can just the internet to watch whatever I missed last night.
A few short sentences and Barack Obama was sworn in. What a day a difference made and for the White House, one minute was all it took to change from George W. Bush to Barack Obama. Amazing. The wonders of technology. Was typing a report today and then I realise that from now on, I need to write "former US President George Bush".
Hiak.
A few short sentences and Barack Obama was sworn in. What a day a difference made and for the White House, one minute was all it took to change from George W. Bush to Barack Obama. Amazing. The wonders of technology. Was typing a report today and then I realise that from now on, I need to write "former US President George Bush".
Hiak.
Monday, January 12, 2009
I love books!
I love my books. Literally. Be it novels, comics blah blah blah. I once threw a tantrum when my mum without asking for my permission lent my 18-serie Chinese comics to my cousin. These are precious. Yeah, that's how mad I can be. Been buying more books for the past two years. I used to rent a lot but now I buy them as well. Recently, I bought Twilight (I said I was frivolous!) and read it twice. Haha. Anyway, now its Barack Obama's turn, bought two of his books. I think the next in line would be the Inkheart trilogy. Heh.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Heeelllloooo!
Hey folks!
Its the 11th day into 2009, but still, since its the first entry for the year, Happy New Year!
Well, I've finally bought a new laptop! I can finally go on the internet after being internet-less for more than a month! Although its not the Macbook that I lusted, but I still love this new laptop of mine. If I had gone ahead with the Macbook, I would have spent another $800, so, cost being the consideration and the fact that I need to save a lot of money this year, I had to 割爱.
To the Macbook that would have been mine, we are not fated!
Hahaha...
Anyway, I went back to the trusty brand of Toshiba for my new laptop. Considering that my old Toshiba lasted more than six years (yes, I used it for more than 6 years!), I really really trust this brand. So, here's a look at my new laptop:
Because of the very fact that I'm a frivolous person, I go for the LOOK and not the specifications, so the very fact that this model was available in pink attracted me instantly. Pity the salesman who was doing the pitch for the other laptop. Hehe...
In any case, I am so happy to be connected again!
Its the 11th day into 2009, but still, since its the first entry for the year, Happy New Year!
Well, I've finally bought a new laptop! I can finally go on the internet after being internet-less for more than a month! Although its not the Macbook that I lusted, but I still love this new laptop of mine. If I had gone ahead with the Macbook, I would have spent another $800, so, cost being the consideration and the fact that I need to save a lot of money this year, I had to 割爱.
To the Macbook that would have been mine, we are not fated!
Hahaha...
Anyway, I went back to the trusty brand of Toshiba for my new laptop. Considering that my old Toshiba lasted more than six years (yes, I used it for more than 6 years!), I really really trust this brand. So, here's a look at my new laptop:
Because of the very fact that I'm a frivolous person, I go for the LOOK and not the specifications, so the very fact that this model was available in pink attracted me instantly. Pity the salesman who was doing the pitch for the other laptop. Hehe...
In any case, I am so happy to be connected again!
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