Its been a good 3 weeks since I blogged... I know I wrote a blog on 8 August but it wasn't just enough to express how I felt at that time. So this blog is going to backdate till 1 August which of course is my birthday (*wink). Well, I had a fantastic and bad birthday, I know it sounds ironic but I really don't know how to describe it. It was a fantastic birthday because Joshua treated me like a princess. He celebrated my birthday a day earlier by surprising me with a bouquet of flowers, bought me a jacket which I really liked and treated me to an awesome dinner at Surf and Turf in Suntec City. If you want to have steak and seafood, get great value for your food, Surf and Turf is the place. Now, why was it a bad birthday? Well, I was suppose to meet Hui Juan after work that day to celebrate my birthday. In the end, I cancelled it beacuse my mum wanted me home for dinner. So I was expecting some good food or a favourite dish. However, it was disappointing. I reached home only to find out that my mum had nothing special for me. There was no red packet, absolutely nothing. At least, my dad still bought me a birthday cake although it wasn't my favourite flavour. To make things worse, my mum rebuked me for spending too much money when I wanted to borrow money from her to pay my tuition fee loan. I know I have to pay for it out of my own pocket because this is my own education but currently I do not have the means and that's why I wanted a loan from her. In the end, it was a no from her and I ended up crying because I was rebuked by her and because I had such a disappointing birthday at home. Lesson learnt? Never talk about money with your family members, it just won't work out. To add salt to the wound, it seems that everything I do nowadays never seem to please her. I don't know why so I just attribute it that she is having her menopause and some women do get cranky at this stage. I know this seems that I am washing my dirty linen in the public but please allow me to vent my frustration...
Next, it is regarding my work. It was a good 3 weeks in fin-exis advisory. Each day over there was maximized to the fullest and I never felt so busy before. It was also a constant struggle to balance between work and my other commitments. In a nutshell, my capacity has been stretched for the past 3 weeks. However, I made a life changing decision today. I decided to resign from fin-exis. Perhaps, I didn't really know what I wanted. Right from the start when I decided to be a financial adviser representative, there were oppositions and yet I decided to go ahead with it. Perhaps I was blinded with the thought of making more money than my peers and just went ahead without careful consideration. To start with, I was never really interested in the financial sector, perhaps it was the only job available to me back then or perhaps I was just too lazy to look for a job. In a sense, it was like the job was waiting for me. I didn't have to go through any interviews nor did I send in my resume and perhaps that was why I jumped into it. But reality starts to sink in when I began the training. In the end, I realised that this isn't what I want, at least for the next few years. I see this job as a good career switch for me in the future but as for now, I want to try something else. I want to pursue my dreams, my interests and to find my calling in the marketplace. Yeah, it took a lot of me to finally realised this. I had spent hundreds of dollars for the financial modules and to apply for my FAR license. Lesson learnt? Never jump into anything without careful consideration and follow your heart. When I spoke to Lindy, Peiying and Maggie on Friday, they told me that the most important thing is that I should be happy. Although I might not have the highest pay but the most important thing is that I should enjoy my work. I love words more than numbers and that was it. The decision to resign wasn't easy either. I loved the place, the environment, the friends that I had made in fin-exis even though I was there for only 3 weeks. I know its going to be hard to find another working environment like the one they have in fin-exis. There are Christlike values over there and nearly everyone of them has a high level of integrity. Its hard to find such an environment in the corporate world. Nevertheless, I know that I am following my heart now. I might not have a better financial headstart but at least, I am happy...
